Mike Lisle's 30 day challenge(Day2)

Wow feeling a bit better this morning than I did last night.  I have been drinking Juice for the last five days, but yesterday is the first Day that I drank only juice.  To catch you up with why I am doing this, and what I hope to gain from it..check it out..

I am 38 years old, I am married to Tricia Lisle, my beautiful wife who is a a massage therapist here in Scotts Valley CA.  I have 3 amazing kids, Jordan who is now a freshmen in High School, Madison who is 9 and in the 3rd grade, and Taylor who is six and in kindergarten.  On Day 1 of my Reboot my weight was at 248, way too much weight for a guy who has bad knees, damaged biceps ligaments, and constant aches and pains from being in a toxic state.  I had my picture last week, I will post it if I can, and I was totally disgusted with myself.  Not at all the picture of health that I saw in the mirror every day.  I realized that not only was I overweight but my kids were as well, with the exception of my son Jordan who is a picture of fitness..Nice to be fourteen right.  But not only is he fourteen, but I am the one who taught him how to eat, and how to train to gain muscle, and maintain good energy and flexibility.  He practices Martial arts 3 times per week, trains with the Football team at his High School, and is taking dance lessons on top of that, with a full load of homework as well.  I used to be that picture of health.  I spent many years working the Natural Foods Industry starting when I was sixteen years young, and was a store manager, customer service representative for Threshold Enterprises, the manufacture of Source Naturals, and Planetary Formulas.  I learned from the best.  James South, Rob Underhill, Roy Upton, Michael Tierra, and I have friends that are Industry leaders in the study of orthomolecular Biochemistry.  I was the go to guy in the office for questions on Sports Nutrition, and am known to be a library for useful and useless facts alike.  I am sometimes called Cliffy(Cliff Claven).

So How Did I get So Fat?

 So why with all of this know-how do I find myself in the state I am in today.  Pure and simple, I got away from my core beliefs about eating organic clean foods, and staying away from foods that are high in Saturated fat, and hydrogenated oils, I got addicted to pain killers after 3 knee surgeries, 1 biceps tendon reattachment surgery, and a couple of back injuries. The fact is that my life got away from me, instead of living it on purpose, I got stuck in a cycle of starting my day with coffee and lots of sugar and half and half, or worse nondairy creamer, and maybe I would eat a bagel with peanut-butter, or Nutella  on toast about 4 hours after I already woke up, and then I maybe would have a hug bowl of yogurt cottage cheese with almonds, raisins, honey, it all sounds good right?  The problem is that the amount could have served 4 people.  I may have 2 or three apples a week at most, maybe a few bananas a week, a  few oranges a week, and a total of 2 or three servings of veggies per week at most.  I occasionally get into a workout mode as some of you have seen over the years, but the only nutrient that I was making sure I was getting enough of was protein.  The biggest supplementing to my diet I was doing was Baby Ruth Candy Bars.  I Love Baby Ruth Candy Bars!!!!!  Did I say that Loud enough, and they are chock full of peanuts, High in Protein Right?  I also Love..Love..Love Cereal of all kinds. I should own Stock in Kellogg, Post, General Mills, All of them because I would eat pretty much a box of cereal every day if I didn't have 2 kids that ate it too, and I was always trying to figure out how much I could eat, and still leave some for the Kids.  Yikes...Dont Get me started on REESE'S PEANUT BUTTER CUPS. Twinkies, Ho Ho's Hershey's Chocolate Bars with Almonds, ICE CREAM.  Did I mention I dont smoke Marijuana at all.  This is without the Munchies.  Wait a Second, It is getting clear to me as I write this stuff why I am so fat.    I was always hungry because I wasn't giving my body the nutrients it so badly craved.  I am so glad that I am writing all of this stuff down, because I didn't realize that I was in this cycle until I watched Fat Sick and Nearly Dead.  I was so inspired by Joe, and Phil that I went out and got a wonderful Williams -Sonoma Juicer and am now doing my own Reboot.  Please check out the Video on Netflix, and by all means join me in doing a reboot.   I Recommend the juicer from Williams-Sonoma because it is powerful, easy to use, and most of all easy to clean.Join Mike Lisle and Do A Reboot...start by clicking here We can do it together, and keep each other motivated.  I will post pictures, and give daily updates on this blog, and on Facebook.  I cant wait to see what this day is going to produce.  Produce..How funny..Im up to my armpits in Produce right now...HA..

One Mans Quest For "Normal".

Wow what is normal, I remember thinking what would life be like if I was born to different parents, not the son of an alchoholic, manic depressive, sexually abusive pediphile Father, and a religious mother that used her religion to hide from her problems. Oh how my life would be differnt if I didnt wet the bed every night until I was 12. Normal kids didnt have to use plastic sheets on there bed, normal kids didnt get spanked every morning because they did wet the bed. Wow.....I have done so many things wrong in my life to deal with the pain of growing up in this kind of home, wanting so bad to fit in with normal kids from normal families. I didnt realize that most people didnt live in Leave it to Beaver like houses either, but not every body grew up in constant fear like I did. I am writing this blog because I want to put into words the feelings that I have, experiences that I had that have brought me to this place that I am in my life now. I am 35 Years old, the father of 3, in my second marriage, unemployed, a worship leader at my local church, and I live almost everyday with a stomach turning dread that starts when I wake up, and sometimes goes away by mid morning, but sometimes doesnt. For the longest time, I was able to not feel anything, I was a successful sales person, in various industries, in a band, enjoyed going to open mic's at local coffee sh0ps, always puttig on a happy face, I didnt want to let on that I wasnt just another happy go lucky posative guy. I even post posative video's on my Face Book page from Jeoffrey Gittomer. The truth is that I am still trying to find a way to live a normal life, when I still really havent gotten over all of the pain that I still have inside of me. I have had moments when I have just cried uncontrollably, in a kind of loud animalistic moan, you may be able to imagine a 230 lb 6'o Man just crying like a wounded animal, yeah I wish many days that I could feel that pain, but instead I am often cold, distant, and put on a facade with people from church, people at the local stores, and definately with my kids. I dont want them to know the suffering I feel inside, the shame of growing up the way I did, and the fear that I live with everyday. I cant help but wonder, how my life would be different if my mom had just gotten us the hell out of there, protected us from that monster. I know that I want nothing but a happy life for my kids, and I dont want them to grow up the way I did. I am writing this Blog, to get it all out tell my story, and hopefully give some other big tough guys like me out there something, and someone to relate to. And maybe together we can create a life without all of the crippling fear, and loneliness that comes with keeping it all inside.